Transgender Liberty

  Cause It's some kind of sin To live your whole life On a "Might've been" I'm ready now These are the outro ...fading lyrics to a song from a band I love to listen too.  And this is the sort of thing I remind myself about whenever there is any doubt of my story, my journey, the pain I have carried. I've spoken (well written) before about another song which resonated with me long ago. When I had that moment of awakening to my true nature. That moment of realization that all the pieces of my life, the puzzle pieces I could not figure out, the questions, the dissonance, the self hate, anger, the stranger in the mirror, the feelings, the self destruction, the trouble with peace, was because I am transgender.  And the realization became poetry, and as moments like this, there was a song that played that fit what I was going through.  The song  Will they hate me for all the choices I've made? Will they stop when they see me again? I can't stop, now I know w...

 I was listening to a story about a woman who lived in Cuba as a child. Her life was so difficult that they would wake up wondering what they might eat (if anything) for breakfast. They wore the same shoes for 3 or more years and Soap, A piece of Soap was a luxury.  And I concluded that Americans are rotten and spoiled.  This thought was earlier confirmed by my experiences traveling to Costa Rica, renting a 4x4 and just experiencing the country and its people. All of them kind and nice though not having a lot of money.  So how do we fix America? MAGA thinks it is achieved through Force, Oppression, Control(ICE), Fear and Hate. Division.  And Right Wing Christian Nationalist (RWCN) think it is through weaponized versus of condemnation and burning in hell if you don't conform to their idea of what their bible says (See my blog that talks about weaponizing the bible). Like Their Religion is the only one. Laughable... But we all know that doesn't work. Oppression do...

  It is Unfathomable that the United States has fallen to the point to where the Supreme Court Of The United States (SCOTUS) , now Sides with Fascism and Unconstitutional Directives.   https://www.aclu.org/press-releases/supreme-court-allows-trump-administration-to-enforce-discriminatory-passport-policy Consequently the US Government, you know...the organization that is supposed to serve the people.. now enforces discrimination against transgender people. I'm including a screenshot, because it is my hope that in time history will need it.... https://travel.state.gov/en/passports/apply/unique-needs/sex-markers.html This is an Honest and Angry Vent, to the point of tears. I'm working on getting my passport. and I'm ... Angry about it. I'm so upset that our Supreme Court Sided with a Fascist Rapist Monster and his Fascist RWCN Groups. https://www.aclu.org/press-releases/supreme-court-allows-trump-administration-to-enforce-discriminatory-passport-policy and now... https://...

  Something Slightly different today. I was looking into selling my paid for Ford for a Hybrid Electric that gets Average 45 miles to the gallon. Doing some math between how much I drive a year and what the delta would be between what I get now for mileage(not great) to what I would get for mileage per gallon, the cost of fuel, say 4.65 a gallon. And the up front cash to trade old vehicle and replace it with a hybrid. The projected point at which I would cross the threshold of where the hybrid would start saving me money would be 8-15 years, median being 11.5 years. Now think about this.. a hybrid (has a giant battery, but also runs on gas), would probably have that battery need to be replaced once or twice AND it is likely the electric motor is gonna have a problem too. Maybe need replaced and in 11 years…everything will be different. Like who knows what kind cars will be available. Full solar maybe..fusion…cool who knows. So what is the savings? Nothing really. Now..if I were to ...

 A Theory Why Organized Religion Is Scared Of Transgender People Theory: Right Wing Christian Nationalist (RWCN) and supporters of it, are scared of, and have much fear  when it comes to free Thinking People and Transgender Women and Men are Free Thinkers. The Idea.  It is a known FACT that the strategy of the church is to get them young, brainwashing happens while the brain is at its most flexibly and open state (young). This is called Indoctrination And also called brain washing. So the idea is the church has "Sunday SCHOOL" in which they gather the children and teach stories as FACTS...sigh.  The reason they do this is so that they can build legions of non free thinkers. Sheeple, the flock, people who will blindly follow commands in the name of a "deity" and do what ever is told of them. If they say minority group X is bad and should be banned, their rights removed, their existence made unlawful then there it goes .... grab the torch and lets burn the witch. ( Se...

  Organized Religion is a cage.  A cage used to control and direct people to do biddings and explain what people don't understand.  The Salem witch trials are a great example of this.  To Sum what happened. There was a town full of very religious puritan people. with STRICT hierarchy of importance with Men at the top and women at the bottom. These people also kept women slaves. 11 year old girls. Just all round good people (sarcasm). So what happens is winter comes and ..people start getting sick and don't get better. The leadership can't fix it. What to do??? They can't explain i!!!, they are looking silly.. So... it  must be SATAN! The DEVIL! To address the problem they start accusing people, First to go was a slave woman, she was tortured repeatedly for the truth, they tried to beat a confession out of her. Eventually she caved and pointed at another worman, so they did same to her. escallating the violence to confession, and when the women wouldn't confess, ...

Being alone is not the same as loneliness.  I would rather be alone than sell my identity, diminish my light or compromise myself ever again. But there is a cost to being alone. Human Touch is powerful, healing and soothing. I haven't been with anyone in a very long time.  There have been days where I wake up and wonder what is the point. If I were too disappear, the universe would go on, the neighbors would continue about their daily lives, the sun, would rise and fall and nobody would give a @#% except maybe my kids. And that is as good as it gets. I realized that death is like going to surgery. They turn out the lights and you don't know the lights are out. You are at peace. And I wonder sometimes how nice that would be. no pain, no feeling. truly peace.  And...I don't think thats a crazy thought, but a real one. An honest one. One where I look around, realize my life is 5 days of work, 2 days of rest, repeat. And I live in a world where my government hates me and I li...