Transgender Liberty

Being alone is not the same as loneliness.  I would rather be alone than sell my identity, diminish my light or compromise myself ever again. But there is a cost to being alone. Human Touch is powerful, healing and soothing. I haven't been with anyone in a very long time.  There have been days where I wake up and wonder what is the point. If I were too disappear, the universe would go on, the neighbors would continue about their daily lives, the sun, would rise and fall and nobody would give a @#% except maybe my kids. And that is as good as it gets. I realized that death is like going to surgery. They turn out the lights and you don't know the lights are out. You are at peace. And I wonder sometimes how nice that would be. no pain, no feeling. truly peace.  And...I don't think thats a crazy thought, but a real one. An honest one. One where I look around, realize my life is 5 days of work, 2 days of rest, repeat. And I live in a world where my government hates me and I li...

  Today is the 4th of July, 2026 in a country that is under siege by those who would disguise their bad intent with things like "greatness" or "return to normalcy."  In Texas they have decided to allow teaching religion in schools. Think about that. Our countries prinicple of "Separation of church and state", that religion is not taxed for the same reason, as the two being separate. Is now gone.  The place that once was a melting pot of all ideas, cultures, religions, languages is now being pushed to not only be christian only, but TAUGHT in public tax payer...paid for by working peoples taxes. I've talked much about the growing fascism, Right Wing Christian Nationalism (AND to be real...MORMON Nationalism). And it is happening as this is being written. The defenders or the Right Wing Fascist movement are miss-guided. The MAGA base, the radicalized Religious base has it wrong but many refuse to even look at or think about whether they are wrong.  So I ...

We have seen it over and over again, anyone that studies history, any history will see it. Governments, leadership, Organizations, usually RELIGIOUS organizations trying to steer and control people. Defining what can and can't be done.  AND!!! There's a pattern that shows up again and again when governments and religious institutions decide a group of people has gotten too free, too visible, or too inconvenient to the order they want to maintain. It doesn't look the same every time on the surface — sometimes it's a law, sometimes it's a sermon, sometimes it's a school board meeting — but underneath, it's the same five moves, in the same order, every time: Name a threat. Frame the group's existence as dangerous — to children, to "natural order," to the family, to bathrooms, to sports, to the nation itself. Recruit authority. Bring in Pseudo science, scripture, or "tradition" to make the fear sound objective, "real" instea...

 Ageism is a thing.....Dismissive, Sinister, Covert... and it is everywhere. This blog is about what it means to be Older and Transgender and the unique challenges that those people face. First a comment I have seen on Transgender forums by other Younger Transgender people What is the point? I've had younger people say things: "Whats the point?" and "You might as well not..."  *Sigh* this is about as cruel and rotten as it gets. It is a form of ageism, discrimination and honestly a form of HATE of those that don't fit into the club.  I would say this to those transgender people whoo think and say things like this. You are shallow, conceited and you are being exclusive in a minority group that literally has a month called PRIDE that is about being inclusive.  I also want to point out that saying something like that tells me you might not be transgender. Cause to say something like that means you are not dealing with the same Dysphoria the Same problems that m...

 It Costs You Nothing to be kind, generous, grateful, forgiving, empathic, loving, thoughtful. I woke up one morning and I got up and I had a song in my head. not one I had heard on the radio, just an inner glowing.. an inner voice.  It went like this Love Will Win The Day Love...will...win...the...day ... And when the winds are blowing Love will win the day And when the winds are blowing Love will win the day .... Its not much... but it was just bouncing around in my head and I thought what a crazy thing and I wrote it down cause I knew as I woke for the day I'd forget it, like most waking thoughts and this one. well.. I wanted to hold onto it. My self...was telling me something... There is a saying that there is an energy force a "field" and the idea is that this field will remind you of w hat you need to become or what you need to do until you do it. And I think in this waking moment my brain was giving me self care. like literally my inner thoughts was that I need ...

We are living in a time whereby terrible rotten people and organizations ( https://glaad.org/gap/ ) look and seek actively to remove rights from citizens in the United States. The Current GOP Administration,  MAGA Base, and Right Wing Christian Nationalist Organizations Tolerate (and look the other way) murder, violence, hate speech AND are actively driving oppression, division, and the removal of rights and liberties from US Citizens and to be real this is a global problem and applies to other countries too. Stepping back there is a famous Saying "Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it" - Winston Churchill This was originally coined and written by philosopher George Santayana in his 1905 work The Life of Reason. Thinking about this....we all need to put down our phones and think about what this means. What this means is History gives us a guide of what Evil and Bad looks like. Where mistakes were made and the COST in lives and the RUIN that was a resul...

 Part of every persons journey, transgender or cis is one of identity. Who am I? Why am I here? What is my purpose? Is there a god or gods?  For Transgender people they have an added complexity and confusion that makes seeing the answers more difficult.  Imagine spending your life hating the person in the mirror looking back. Not understanding why you feel better when you put on certain clothing. Why you abuse and mutilate yourself and it makes you feel better. Why you derail your relationships recklessly. Can't have friends, drink excessively, go to chat rooms, why you have weird dreams you can't explain since childhood. and a whole lot more that I WILL not share here. To want relationships, want love, but then wreck them because you are not present in the relationship...something is missing, a void the relationship cannot fill. Something walled up wanting out. This is what it is like to have Gender Dysphoria.  I had no idea about transgender growing up, if I had kn...