Loneliness And The Universe
Being alone is not the same as loneliness. I would rather be alone than sell my identity, diminish my light or compromise myself ever again. But there is a cost to being alone. Human Touch is powerful, healing and soothing. I haven't been with anyone in a very long time. There have been days where I wake up and wonder what is the point. If I were too disappear, the universe would go on, the neighbors would continue about their daily lives, the sun, would rise and fall and nobody would give a @#% except maybe my kids. And that is as good as it gets. I realized that death is like going to surgery. They turn out the lights and you don't know the lights are out. You are at peace. And I wonder sometimes how nice that would be. no pain, no feeling. truly peace. And...I don't think thats a crazy thought, but a real one. An honest one. One where I look around, realize my life is 5 days of work, 2 days of rest, repeat. And I live in a world where my government hates me and I li...